alhamdulillah. it's been long and im glad to tell u guys i passed my final professional exam announced on 1st August just a month before. yeap. Dr nadwa aqeela waiting to be enslave by the upper hierarchy in soon-to-know government hospital, I supposed. anyhow, your utmost dua is encouraged and cherished. let's end it there. i don't to wish to talk about that. i go through my lappy and i found some random scratch written several weeks before study period, i guessed. you know, i'd always love to read lang leav piece of work. her words somehow strangely serene and kept lingering in my head for quite sometimes although most of it incorporate the theme of-love. cliche much? i love the fact that she brought me in to dive deeper in her sea of words, and indirectly having the same exquisite feeling or at least something like that. hence, this was made. i'm sorry if this is one crappy job, yeah i'm not a writer myself-i'm just wanted to write. tell me what you think if you read. does it somehow dragged you into the feeling i was when i wrote this? or something in between?
The Dream
I was at the room, I never knew where I was
but everything seems familiar. Not long later, I have my own personal errand to
finish, hence I left my things there – my laptop and whatnot on the table where
I seated. And I was gone for good 1 to 2 hours, before returning back to the
room. When I was on my way back, to the extent of my surprise, I saw his
belongings – his turquoise checkered shirt, his bag and other things as well
parked neatly on the chair in front of the room. My face lit up with undefined
infinite hope knowing that if the time was just right and matched each other
time zone, we could have meet each other eyes. So I sit back on the same spot I
was at previously, waiting and hoping that by chance, I could set my eyes on
the same face I’ve been seeing a long time ago. Just before the flare of my
dream rises up, apparently and old man came, approaching me, seems reluctant
initially but I greeted him with a warm smile. He told me I was not supposed to
wait here, inside the room. Overwhelmingly, I packed my belongings as staying
in the room was not an option for me anymore and as I walked my first step
outside the room, I noticed his belongings were not there anymore – it was now
in front of the table just across the room. At that particular moment, I knew
that for sure he was here, somewhere around the room that if time could be just
right and definite, our fate could intertwined, again. I turned left and right
as I walked, taking the slowest step hoping that his head will popped up somewhere,
appeared with the exquisite shining pair of eyes he have had, glistening in the
darkness I shared. But time was never on
my favor anyway. And all this while, I live at that moment thinking that
someday, somewhere on earth, it will eventually lead me back to him. At that
time, I could sit at his favourite coffee shop, sipping a cup of warm latte
while watching the down pouring rain through the transparent glass wall,
talking how we have never be true with each other hearts since the very
beginning. And until that time comes, I will still live at that excruciatingly
painful but still a beautiful moment.