random 3#.

it had been song long since the last time i played more than words. i already forgot how to pluck that song. thought i want to play it a bit. but yeah, 2mr is going to be the first paper. crp. so i postponed my wills later though my heart tells me not to. pft.

like usual, i am waiting for ishak. instead, don't know how, in the middle of nowhere, she came into my mind. i called her nash. i met her at kmpk. she is always a good friend of mine, she plays futsal (striker, indeed), a bit tomboyish-like, cute and i adore her (in a good way --"). she has this positive-thinking mind, she dreams high. i still can remeber how she told me about her ambitions one night, when i accidentally went to her room. she showed me all the sticky notes with her aims & goals she pasted on the wall. yes. she is one of a kind. she loves history subject too.

lol. suddenly, i'm missing her. we're not that besties, but for some reasons, i do like her a lot. during my birthday, when i was about to go to the class, i was running down the staircase, she saw me and along with her roomies, she sang happy birthday.*touched*. lol.yes. that's me!.  i always remember smallest things in life, that left something big in my heart. :)

thinking of her, i suddenly remembered this song. she used to like it. probably still. 

 

may Allah bless u, nash a.k.a cua.

pst 1 : kate org kalau rindu, panjat doa2 byk. oh rindu family ngn anak buah :').
pst 2 : beautiful rain tgh hari tadi. subhanallah.
pst 3 :my beautiful insignificant. eh. goodbye.
pst 4 : stay positive. even kids know how to do that.
pst 5 : smoga ALLAH permudahkan urusan kawan-kwan ku skalian. heee:). may the best be upon us.

:')

because i have to.
i just have to.
Allah
Allah
Allah.

31 december notes.

assalamaualaikum :). nak tulis dalam bahasa. heee

fireworks. subhanallah. masyaAllah. beautiful. i was in the car just now, just got back from bandara to mulana. and it is 31st december. they're all celebrating 1st january new year, with fireworks and meriam. for me, i don't wish selamat tahun baru, or happy new year, or making new 'azam tahun baru' sort, i always believe everyday is His gift and another chance to improve one's so everyday is a new year, start with a new hope and new beginning :). but still, i do respect ppl whom making things like that, because peoples are different, if that'll help them to become better, why not?

alhamdulillah. to most of newlyweds i met, may Allah blessing's be all along the way. may the new 'mosque' built will be fill with sakinah, mawaddah, and rahmah. in sya Allah. :'). marriage did complete half of each deen's for a couple. selamat menjalani alam rumah tangga la ye my sissy, my senior and others too:).

2012 did teach me a lot. tomorrow i'll be 22, informally. there are too many sweet sour salty bitter memories all along the way, but i believe in each of that pieces of moments, there're something valuable to be learn. masa lalu bukan untuk dikesal dan diratapi lama-lama, tetapi untuk ditoleh sebentar dan diambil pengajaran. because we are human. and we make mistakes.i value and appreciate all my mistakes because it will create a better me. kan? ;).

my journey might still be too far. but at the very least, i'm making my baby steps. sbb Allah tgok usaha compare to result kan? hee. 

some picture-says-it-all notes ;)

"air mata ini menyedarkanku, yang kau takkan pernah jadi milikku.." -noah band  (HUMU)

tumpang pakai inai di wedding sissy.

i bought this yesterday night at mph. ole2 sebelum balik bandung:)

tu je. may Allah bless.

mist.and.goodbye

i never thought things are true
i've took my words lightly
i said it with smile and laughter
yes, those things sometimes bothered me
but i've decided not to care

then today i saw it all
it crushes me in & out, even right now
i was startled for a while

i couldn't even remember all my dream
and thoughts
it washed away like an ocean wave wash the shore

i know it wasn't going to end up the way i want
maybe He want me to stop all this thinking
it would take some times
but i promised i'll get through it
after all sissy did say it's going to break me
and it did.

this is it. this time i finally let go.

lp everywhere

i was just too in love with those :P 

lost in the echo

i don't back up, i don't back down
i don't fold up, and i don't bow
i don't roll over, don't know how
i don't care where the enemies are
can't be stopped
all i know, GO HARD!
 

random subh thought 2#

hey i just thought i wanna write this, because it suddenly appeared in my mind. when i heard this song-for the first time (the script).. xkait lansung.=="

before, mum once told me after i was born into our family, they've actually agreed to name me 'fataina amira'. (thought probably i'm gonna get beautiful eyes with those name.. lolXD).  then when that name was about to be established, bapak disapproved. he said that the name is too 'soft' and common. he's afraid i'll ended up being a weakling, non independent, 'excessively soft-hearted' girl. so he changed my name to 'nadwa aqeela'.

now that i think about it, there was one time during my school days, probably during my standard 1or 2 (can't remember exactly when is when),  i really dislike this name. thought it was weird, and i always admire and envy of my sister name, nurin hanani. (still think it was beautiful though. --"). but as i grew up, i learn that this name fit me the most, it was quite a different name and i honestly like it so much.

thank you bapak for changing it..:')

'lol. can't imagine ppl calling me aina or amira..) hehe. till then. .looking forward to this bright new day. ;-).

happy jumuah. may Allah bless.