.

over my head

it will be good if i get to walk alone like how i usually did back then when i was still in bandung.

now everything seems far & faded away

there was a time i stood alone at the roundabout somewhere in mulana

thinking how i would miss this moment when it ends

and stand back at the balcony

watching the blue sky with fluffy cotton candy clouds

or sometimes on purpose walking leisurely outside

when it rain

to feel, to hear, and to see the rain

with no worries. without any other else to accompany me

it feels right that way

but not here

i am afraid to walk alone

i feel suffocated, the outside world are cruel and horrible

not saying that there were no crimes at jatinangor

but it feels much safer there

i could go alone and return alone

i could be independent on myself

now i could only stand

beside the windows pane

turning on my most favourite songs on the playlist

withe a cup of tea on the table

looking out right through the window

but still being aware of strangers outside

waiting for the rain

and smiling.

joted.

since i could'nt bring myself to sleep lately, i think it's probably because of i spend too much time sleeping in the evening. and i'm wide awake at night. this is not healthy, technically. and i woke up to find out someone inbox me.

and never once this crossed my mind. anak andy flop poppy msg ak weh. lol. actually, i was the one who sent  message to him first, but as lame as what i wrote, i never thought he actually cared to reply. don't worry, the message wasn't that typical of what girl(s) fan usually came up with, it was more to advices from a sister to her little brother though. :)

guess that's all. oh yeah, here in cheras, it rain almost everyday in the evening, which kind of giving me that soothing feeling enwrapped in calmness and serenity. i really love it the fact that i could look out of the window, and watch the downpouring rain, and sometimes put my palm outside just to feel the beads. it was a definite beautiful. in some points, it reminds me of how it actually felt in bandung, back then. :)

i'm done with too much writing. gotta sahur now. assalamualaikum :)

how to calculate POA by EDD. :)

assalamualaikum. since i got really excited of discovering this tonight, i decided to blog this. i hope at the very least, this will help some of us including myself. they said, if you're able to teach others on something, it means you really understand it.

so basically, for the concept.
POA=period of amenorrhea.
EDD=estimated delivery date
DOV=date of visit

let's say:

1) LMP=26/12/12
    DOV=27/8/13
    EDD=2/10/13 (just insert the formula from naegle's rule-LMP+(+7(d)-3(m) +1(y) ). seriously i don't think you guys will hv problem with this. simple maths calculation. :)
    POA= ? 

basically, they're two ways to calculate the POA.

a) LMP BASED
POA
= DOV-LMP
=  27/08/13 [DOV]
   -26/12/12 [LMP]
     1d 8m
convert to weeks:
=(8x4)w + 2w +5d + 1d
=34w+6d

 if you're not sure why i added up the 2w it's because for every 3 months you hv to add up 1 week (REFER TO PIC ABOVE). thus, because it is 8 months, means you have 2 times of 3 months in 8 months, you hv to add up a total of 2 weeks into the calculation.for the addition of 5d.

and the final answer u'll get is POA=34w + 6d

b)EDD BASED
POA
-first, manually count the days from DOV to EDD; in which:
DOV[27/8/13] to EDD[2/10/13]=4d+30d+2d
                                                  =36d
                                                  convert to weeks/36d divide by 7
                                                   =5w 1d
                                                   =40w -(5w 1d)
                                                   =34w + 6d
 -basically u'll hv 5w 1d from DOV to the estimated date of delivery(EDD). since usually EDD will be exactly 280 days or 40 weeks, thus, u can simply substract 5w 1d from 40w to get POA! this is so much simpler and highly recommended to use if the DOV is nearer to EDD, but of course, u can use either way, the one you found easier with better understanding.
-well, you might be asking why is the answer 34w+6d instead of 35w+1d. by right, you should get 35w+1d if you simply substract it using usual ordinary addition substraction methods. it's really hard to explain in words, but let me just give you another short example.
 let say if your EDD (23/8/13) & ur DOV (20/8/13). By right, u'll get 3days from DOV to EDD. so, if you wanted to count the POA using the EDD BASED method with usual maths substraction step, you'll end up like this.
POA=40w-(0w +3d)
        =40w+3d
-this is definitely wrong since the total EDD is only 40 weeks. the correct way is actually:
POA=40w-(0w+3d)
        =39w+4d
-by logic, i'm sure you hv no problem figuring out how on earth i ended up putting 39w+4d as the answer,. OR BETTER, I always substract it like this.
using the example from above:

DOV[27/8/13] to EDD[2/10/13]=4d+30d+2d
                                                  =36d
                                                  convert to weeks/36d divide by 7
                                                   =5w 1d
                                                   =39w 7d - (5w 1d) ; instead of using 40 weeks, convert it to 39 w 7d
                                                   =34w + 6d



well then, i shall get my sleep now. remember, practice makes perfect. so just came up with any dates and try to calculate the EDD & POA and compare it with ur friends. trust me, this helps!

hope this helps. anything just comment below k:)

#ramadhan #morning #sleepy #drowsiness

assalamualaikum.

pernah terfikir kenapa bile kita sedih, kite nak menangis. lepas menangis, biasenye kite rase letih dan mengantuk lepas tu tertidur. bila tersedar, alhamdulillah semuanya da okay. konfem kan? not sure bout you guys but pretty sure this happen to most of the girls. memandangkan kebanyakan perempuan ni mmg kaya dgn air mata. (eh?). haha.tadi baru lepas surah al-anfal. and here goes the answer.

surah al-anfal,ayat 11.

(Ingatlah) ketika kamu diliputi perasaan mengantuk sebagai satu (pemberian) aman dari Allah (untuk menghapuskan kecemasan kamu). Dan (ingatlah ketika) Ia menurunkan kepada kamu hujan dari langit untuk mensucikan kamu dengannya dan menghapuskan dari kamu gangguan Syaitan, dan juga untuk menguatkan hati kamu dan menetapkan dengannya tapak perdirian (kamu di medan perjuangan).

(tafsir ar-Rahman)

terasa sgt sweet Allah di situ. <3.teringat pernah cakap kat sahabat pasal ayat ni tapi waktu tu lupe ayat surah yg mane satu.. Allahurabbi --". sekarang dah jpe balik. alhamdulillah. jadi kesimpulannya, mengantuk ni adalah one way yg Allah kurniakan untuk bg kite ketenangan.. :). subhanallah. tapi janganlah kite bantai tido sepanjang mase kan.. 

(untuk pemahaman yg lebih lanjut drpd yg lebih ahli^_^)

hari ni hari last ramadhan untuk tahun ni. semoga kita insan yang lebih baik selepas keluar dr ramadhan ni. in sha Allah. ya Rabbi temukan aku dah keluargaku di ramadhan-ramadhan yang akan datang. Ramadhan yg masih berbaki ni kite sprint byk lg ok. sebab hidup di dunia ni hanya untuk cari redha-Nya:)

  pst: smalam subuh hujan kat taiping smp pagi. subhanallah. :'). rase melankolia sgt. terase bandung-feel sgt2. T_T

buzzer beat.

so i came up to a point of doing this. actually it's been a long time since the last time i used vegas vid editor. this is because my lappy doesn't allow me to do editing work. well what could i say, i got a small ram with unqualified processor here. :P but due to i really love all the dramatic scense shown in the jdrama, despite how slow it could be, i'm patient enough to go thru almost everything and voila. here it is. i rendered it 3 times. it wasn't that impressive but i am satisfied for the fact that i've put every beautiful moments together  into a 4 minutes vid. the running scene was fantastic, you know the moment you finally realized you couldn't afford to lose something (or someone) because of something else. and at that point, you have to know your priorities. in order to get something better, you have to let go something else in return. this is some of the good values i've outline from the drama. frankly speaking, i love the story line, how they put both art and sport characters together, except for several adult scenes. --"

besides. the ost is awesome. i enjoy fun, strong with passion audio beats. i always thought that it would make up a really dramatic video if been put up well. and the lyrics. modified a bit by me. just to make it sound pretty.;)

"You only really know a fraction of me"
like when you laugh during my triumph
Your deep voice that I feel as if I heard before I was born
It's enough to serve as the side dish of my life

It's impossible to know absolutely everything
Why is it, then?
That we are so determine to conquer everything...
And desperately seek for perfection
if that's the one point you love, than.. it's fine

Even if it's only one small part of you...
I'm certain it's something I'll adore more than anything
Like the way you knit your eyebrows when you're stressed
Or the serenity i felt when i held you in my arms

If we think we've grasped everything of each other...
We'll surely hurt each other again
What we really need is the wonderful sensation from touching each other (Oh, you're the one)
Having even one point we can continue loving each other with, is enough

Something that only you know (I can't tell)
Something that only I can see (You never know)
They're all real

The fact that everything is a part of something
Why don't we realize it?
If you've found a reason to love someone...
Don't let it be lost (Oh, you're the one)
Having even one point we can continue loving each other with is enough
It's really enough

random ptg.

wahh.. ramadhan smp raya ni mmg musim membina masjid. member baiik aku, batchmate, schoolmate semue nak menamatkan zaman bujang masing-masing. rasa sesak nafas kejap tgok berjenis-jenis undangan baitul muslim kat fb ni. Allahurabbi. alhamdulillah, jodoh mereka smp awal. belum kire lg yg dah bertunang, erm mmg x terbilang dgn jari. ak tumpang gembira. ye la, umur 22, bukannya muda sgt pn. dah cantik dah kalau2 nak menyempurnakan sunnah tu :). ape2 pn, barakallah dicuapkan kpd sume mmber2 ak terutama bespren ak nih. ak tau lame dah dr tahun lepas.die geng aku kat maktab dulu, ABLA. tak sangke plak byk plak schoolmate aku yang pada masa yg sama pn nak berbaitul muslim jgak. heeee..kenyang nasik minyak la ak lepas kenyang rendang ngn tupat. apa2 pun, institusi ramadhan dah capai separuh bulan, dah 15 ramadhan. lepas ni dah masuk fasa ke-2 lah. keni giat lagi. kene tekun lg. kena kerah lg. carikla malam seribu bulan tu. IA. td ak baru habis latihan kereta kat TSDC.,alhamdullillah, dah semakin okay kawal stereng, main clutch, imbang minyak bagai. kire agak konfiden di situ nak bawak keta sorang (dalam tamanlah).. haha. nak bawak kat jalan raya, Allahurabbi, mungkin kena latihan lg. JPJ motor ak ditunda tp iA, biiznillah, boleh lulus. lepas ni bolela hurung moto bawak balik ukm. keta mungkin x kot. dalam perkiraan ak JPJ test kereta ak paling awal pn bulan 9. tu pun kena carik lg cuti. nak dijadikan story, lepas habis2 belaja kereta tu, ak dok lua pagar tsdc. kelihatan pakcik makcik dah sesiap bukak pasar ramadhan mini dah. mata sibuk pandang setiap calon keluar dr gate dgn pengajar kat sebelah. leka2 ak tgok tu, ade satu kereta ni, calon die cina, cikgu dia cina gak. tp... MUDA & . dlm hati pikiaq, eh bile plak TSDC hire pengajar muda belia ni yg ak agak2 maybe dlm lingkunagn 25-28. dahlah tu rambut cacak2 ala-ala jpop siap pakai spek hitam lg.T.T". tetibe bibir dah tersengih mcm kerang busuk, eh boleh plak cuci mate kat sini. rezeki2. dlm hati istighfar smbil sebut "jaga mata nadwa, jaga mata" tp mata dok tgok gak cikgu tu lol. maybe kaum bukan sebangsa ni lebih menarik kot nak ditengok. ishk. opps. oklah nak bersiap2 mandi pastu lepak2 kat pasar ramadhan sat. doakan ak lulus cemerlang test JPJ naa. assalamualaikum. footnote: nebes. abis ramadhan, raye tibe. abis raye daftar ukm pule. Allahurabbi,permudahkanla ak & membe2. kurniakan la kesihatan dn smgat yg kuat kpd kami. aaminn.