lol

the awkward moment when u literally add somebody in facebook
just to find out he/she's online but did not approve your request
lol
i'll never do this again --"
thiss is too much of embarassment for mankind.

kali pertama

hari ni buat kali pertama
mata terkebil-kebil 
basah tepi hujung mata
buat kali pertama
tunggu azan tepi tingkap 
dalam gelap
pertama kali dengar azan dalam dalam
lepas azan cepat-cepat cari stokin
buat kali pertama 
pergi surau
dalam surau tiada siapa, pelik
hujung ade seorang perempuan
tuduh labuh warna hitam
baju merah
buku berselerakan di tepinya
kusyuk mentelaah
berhati-hati, tegur dia

"err memang hari ni tak ramai orang jemaah ke kat sini?"

bibir terukir senyum, segan
die dongak, senyum lagi

"nanti lepas iqamat baru ramai. orang dtg lepas iqamat selalunye.."

lembut manis sahaje tuturnya
muka serba salah. bibir dia macam nak cakap sesuatu

"err dari mana? student sini ke?"

"student sini. hukm."

"tahun brapa? medic?"

"3rd year..medic"

"ohh tak pernah nampak pun.."

bibir senyum lagi. segan. aku segan dia segan.

"ini kali pertama.. kali pertama datang sini. sebelum ni tak pernah."

masing2 terdiam putus bicara. segan keduanya. senyum sajalah.

iqamat. tibe2. die bingkas bangun
dicapai sejadah dari hujung surau lalu dihulurkan kepadaku. 

"nah.."

katanya sambil tersenyum. 

hi.

so long since the last post. hi blog. did u miss me?awe :)

still with my almost-the-same schedule everyday. yet, still have many things to accomplish. still going through the journey of thousands unwritten dreams. still strugling, fell down, stumbling in this med school, getting sweaty all ahead getting scold by the rightful white collars (which i knew for my own benefit). 

still some time were spent on many things to feed on that very part of her. sneaking time in between thick books playing guitar in front of wide open window upon the falling rain; pretending to jog when what she did was just walking around like how she used to do at bandung, alone, in the beautiful sunsetty evening, with ear plugged with her most favourite coldplay songs top on the list; fluttered and never bored making  her very own never ending story when accidentally came across the messy looked senior who'd just finished his last year and soon will say good bye; still thinking subh  (or dawn)  is always a sign of new hope and will always be and how awesome it is to open up the window breaking the dawn and take in the fresh air; missing bandung when looking at the old photos, as if part of her was left there; thought that sunset is somehow extraordinarily attached to beautiful memories.

enough.

a deen lies within the dark lines, la tahzan..

dream'd

i wish i could put every places in my dream. it's not a 2014 dream, or even 2015, it is rather lifelong dream. to get lost in somewhere so far yet so near in the heart, embracing the soul of calmness and serenity. i dream'd of being there, step on both of my feet, even for just a moment. 

i guessed the feeling is almost the same as what i hv hd in mind for all this time; to board a train and headed nowhere from one end to the other end, without fixed destination or places to go. i've already put it inside my lucky jar. i wished it would be a dream-came-true.

1. Mendehall Ice Caves, Juneau, Alaska

it seems like fantasy here. if and only if i could be there for just a little while..

2. Bamboo Forest, Japan

they said it's like a huge windchime here, walking in a tunnnel with bamboos at your left and right. and as the wind blew, the beautiful naturally made sound appear, out of nowhere.

3. Wisteria Flower Tunnel, Japan

this is absolutely.. breathtaking. 

4. Tunnel Of Love, Ukraine

like a dream. this is absolute stunning, and it feels like watching the tenth kingdom as i pierced through this picture.
and last but not least,..

5. Salar De Uyuni, Bolivia

the toppest of the top. 

i hope someday we can go there together. and if not, dream is the only thing that matters. 

and.yes i included you in my dream.

days will get better.
oh Allah, pls grant my wishes my Lord. 
i am afraid, and so many thoughts run in mind.
guide us
protect us
and pls grant my wishes.
aamin.

cha eun sang x choi young do :)

 finally.
i steal some time to come out with this
how can doing video be one of my satisfaction?
guess that's just me ;)
i put my initial there, not that i think some people might plagiarized it sort
just that it'll be way cooler to put it down there. ha ha.

anyway
it's final dear.
pls pray for us..