date.

today i'm having a date with my dearest gf, a convent girl. she used to be my companion eversince standard six.we grew up together, cut hair with the same emo style back then, hang out evry evening and watch all the cute boys (if any) with their bike during my lower form time, and sharing all those stupid embarassing childish girl stuff as well as hvg sleepover like mad almost every month. oh yeah, she's the one who ride on my motorbike with me, turn out to be i crashed it somewhere and both of us fell down on the road. luckily we're both save and uninjured. (except for the minor cut at her heel --")

so we've been lost in contact for almost 3 years. and now we're back together. hehe.

so here she is. :). i blurred myself bcause it feels wrong to show others how we selca-ing or camwhoring. --".

it'll be better if the cardboard dummy is 'uri yong yong' instead of  KHJ.. --". (pun boleh..)

so we did all these girly stuff chatting to pay for the 3 years stories she hasn't told me about. lol. i'm being a convent girl again. sometimes i felt myself changed according to type of friends i befriend with. it was totally different days back then, mrsm friends, matriks, and now.. still. i love all of them :). they're unique and special, in their own way.

phoro from the previous coffee date with maya & syera. captured by maya. :) edit by me. told her how i love the angle of this picture.. :3

last but not least, yeayy. i finally see the light in my part time work. i'm waiting for the call. pls call me, pls call me,pls call me. :). till then.

:)

i accidentally go through my lappy and found this. :')

:')

urge.

i have this sudden unexplain urge to watch this scene again.

after all, this is the one and only scene i remembered from that drama

maybe it wasn't that scene after all

maybe it was in my dream

the feeling of touching the raindrops and having million thoughts in mind at one time

i've been in one

drops. and beads.

 serene.

:). <3

but i could ensure, it was all beautiful.

have you touch the raindrops? please try, someday then.

again.

dip my head down in the water

and let the splash hit my head

the eyes got blur

and when i open it, all i could see is the blue sky.

and the cotton candy cloud.

 the same thought came.

lingering in my head.

when will i stop seing your back?

hello

i hear no sound and story
i see no faces
i just hope you're doing fine
and happy.

last farewell

to leave bandung forever
to leave and not returning back, probably
to find out my journey here has come to an end
make it so hard not to tear

i knew the road ahead is still far away
i got long way to go
we got long way to go
but somehow part of me will always include
the beautiful bittersweet bandung memoirs
and in my story
there'll always be them
and those faces
and those moments
those things that makes me smile unintentionally

and as we wave our long goodbye
and not looking at each other eyes
i wonder if anything will change between us all
or will it stay the same
will it?

they say don't grieve at parting
so i wouldn't
but even if time pass by
and i finally see those smile again
the time here will never fade in my mind.

kav 42 mulana.4.00am WIB.27 april 2013

so if it's going to be beautiful, how beautiful will it be?

a little note

i'll be sitting for GUS remedial the day after tomorrow. i discussed it with several doctors. i just highlight what i heard from one of the noble dr i've known; dr Ike. one lovely strong hearted women, whom right now living with only one kidney:'). she advised me to sit for remedial exam MDE with good soca marks. but she pointed out that it doesn't mean i shouldn't take exam with poor soca marks, it's just that the chances to increase my grade is harder and smaller. i'm kind of dissapointed since i didn't do quite well in GUS but my soca wasn't that good as well. (i got C+ for GUS). in the end, i put one tick in RESP system remedial exam. 

going home, i think much. i take a good look in my marks and do some counting. and then i ended up texting doc tina. my friend did help me a lot, support me in everything i do. 

and there go my decision.

"doc bisa ga saya nambah subjek?" 

a replied came, fast. "bisa. mau nambah apa?"

my face brighten. i was delighted to hear how pleased doc tina was, hearing such from me. 

"mau nambah GUS dan PHOP 6 doc. :) makasih doc"

i did that not because i'm not satisfied, nor i want to increase my pointer so badly. it is just because of my own satisfaction. at the very least, i've given my best, isn't it. yang lain2 tu belakang kira, semua urusan Dia kan? i'm the only one who sit for phop 6. LOL. 

and alhamdulillah, it is still fresh in my mind the time my face turn white my hands cold and shaky knowing the soca result will burden my mde marks during judicium 1. and beautifully,  He has planned everything unexpectedly perfect that keep me smiling the whole day and felt grateful no words can describe much. :') 
thank you Allah. <3.

my dear, He planned everything perfectly. so don't be insecure, don't worry to much, In Sha Allah He will ease everything you'll never know. just don't forget to keep your dua since that is our strongest weapon and work hard as well. you'll always get my dua :).

because the big picture will only be shown after some time :)