4th day of posting.

Have u ever got that feeling, of watching two lovelies ;  a woman, as bloom as ever can she be, lying on the bed halfly pushed in front counter, with  next-I’ll-be-going-to-OT attire wrapped on her body, with sweat right on her forehead and those below nose, holding hand  with a man beside her, (likely her other half) waiting to be taken by the nurse in charge to the labour room. The man is whispering sweet something to her ear, with overflowing supports, affections and infinite loves, knowing that her queen will eventually deliver one (or maybe two) precious gem(s) that will definitely, enlighten both of their life. I mean, how sweeter could it be to have someone beside us, someone that is always there, with never ending hopes-giving and support in times of great or worries. Someone that shares their life with us and completes each other world, making it fascinating jaw-dropping rainbow colours days together onwards that others would never have understand.

This is not a damn fairy tale u read in books or the bedside story u often heard when u’re small-that because of the excruciating boredom, u eventually fell asleep. This is not a fiction some famous director created, to feed on hungry love-sick watchers that probably have nothing better to do than spending their time in front of television. Indeed, this is the reality. I saw that very scene in the morning, when it was just my 4^th day in ONG posting (obstetrics & gynaecology). The moment of extradoses diabetes mellitus-inducing glucogenic agent keep flowing in ur circulation, right towards ur head. Unconsciously, u were smiling before u even knew it, watching those bonds that can only be felt after marriage. (Otherwise, it wouldn’t be considered as sweet).

Notes: Ya Allah, pls give me healthiness in both physically & mentally, stronger soul, and determination so that I can always be enthusiastic in this world of giving. Aamin. :')

five or ten years to go.

I made this not-so-long time ago when I still have time to lie around and wandering still. Apparently, I got all blues and melancholy stuff running through my mind and ended up spending times doing this in the middle of the night, with wind blowing breezily right onto my face. I have no idea how it became blurred when I uploaded in utube, so forgave me for that. Perhaps I should learn converting videos to hd for the time being. But if u by chance wish to watch clearer version, skype me anytime!

I just wanted u guys to know deep down inside, even if we denied it, we’re bonded by something extraordinary called… friends.

I love you guys, seriously. J

song by the fray: viena 

latenightjot.

honestly, right now i'm fighting with myself; in which either to write a post, eat instant noodles curry flavour or lay back and relax reading novel-lost for words by lorelei mathias. in the end, here i am, typing unnecessary stuffs, pretending to do a little a bit of thinking when actually what i was doing was staring at the monitor, waiting for the words to flow from the brain.--".

as everyone had already aware, i am currently doing my clinical years, 3 years to go to grad (in sha Allah and aamin-please pray for us btw), clerking patients like all-of-us-know-how attitude and giving the best smile i've ever had to the patients, doctors, nurses as well as hospital staff. of course, sometimes i am at that position too, things you called as at delirious state, not knowing what to do. the awkwardness of being in the middle of everybody who busily doing something. and with white coat hanging on the body and stethoscope wrapped inside the pocket, claimed yourself as medical students but in fact, don't really know what were actually you hv had to do there.

but of course, bit by bit, getting grasp of the whole situation. starting to have clearer point of views of aims and to-do-things. all we have to do is to put ourselves in the humbleness, so that we'll be fully exposed & ready for any knowledge and lessons to be teach by various teachers-no matter who they are. could be they are the doctors, the professors, the nurses, the patients or even the cleaners. we're not gonna go anywhere if we're not willing to drown ourselves in this sea of humbleness. set aside the ego, throw it away somewhere it could never be found, ever again! of course, diligent, determination, respect and PRACTICES do make a lot of differences. knowledge too-as what miss nani always said.

  the last one is a present.to my current vitamin-21 years old chinese guy with sweet smile.LOL:P

and like a petal that's fallen from a dying flower, i fell for you knowing it'd never work out anyways. -ws-

haha.
i just love the quote very much. ignore the last statement. =P

.

over my head

it will be good if i get to walk alone like how i usually did back then when i was still in bandung.

now everything seems far & faded away

there was a time i stood alone at the roundabout somewhere in mulana

thinking how i would miss this moment when it ends

and stand back at the balcony

watching the blue sky with fluffy cotton candy clouds

or sometimes on purpose walking leisurely outside

when it rain

to feel, to hear, and to see the rain

with no worries. without any other else to accompany me

it feels right that way

but not here

i am afraid to walk alone

i feel suffocated, the outside world are cruel and horrible

not saying that there were no crimes at jatinangor

but it feels much safer there

i could go alone and return alone

i could be independent on myself

now i could only stand

beside the windows pane

turning on my most favourite songs on the playlist

withe a cup of tea on the table

looking out right through the window

but still being aware of strangers outside

waiting for the rain

and smiling.

joted.

since i could'nt bring myself to sleep lately, i think it's probably because of i spend too much time sleeping in the evening. and i'm wide awake at night. this is not healthy, technically. and i woke up to find out someone inbox me.

and never once this crossed my mind. anak andy flop poppy msg ak weh. lol. actually, i was the one who sent  message to him first, but as lame as what i wrote, i never thought he actually cared to reply. don't worry, the message wasn't that typical of what girl(s) fan usually came up with, it was more to advices from a sister to her little brother though. :)

guess that's all. oh yeah, here in cheras, it rain almost everyday in the evening, which kind of giving me that soothing feeling enwrapped in calmness and serenity. i really love it the fact that i could look out of the window, and watch the downpouring rain, and sometimes put my palm outside just to feel the beads. it was a definite beautiful. in some points, it reminds me of how it actually felt in bandung, back then. :)

i'm done with too much writing. gotta sahur now. assalamualaikum :)

how to calculate POA by EDD. :)

assalamualaikum. since i got really excited of discovering this tonight, i decided to blog this. i hope at the very least, this will help some of us including myself. they said, if you're able to teach others on something, it means you really understand it.

so basically, for the concept.
POA=period of amenorrhea.
EDD=estimated delivery date
DOV=date of visit

let's say:

1) LMP=26/12/12
    DOV=27/8/13
    EDD=2/10/13 (just insert the formula from naegle's rule-LMP+(+7(d)-3(m) +1(y) ). seriously i don't think you guys will hv problem with this. simple maths calculation. :)
    POA= ? 

basically, they're two ways to calculate the POA.

a) LMP BASED
POA
= DOV-LMP
=  27/08/13 [DOV]
   -26/12/12 [LMP]
     1d 8m
convert to weeks:
=(8x4)w + 2w +5d + 1d
=34w+6d

 if you're not sure why i added up the 2w it's because for every 3 months you hv to add up 1 week (REFER TO PIC ABOVE). thus, because it is 8 months, means you have 2 times of 3 months in 8 months, you hv to add up a total of 2 weeks into the calculation.for the addition of 5d.

and the final answer u'll get is POA=34w + 6d

b)EDD BASED
POA
-first, manually count the days from DOV to EDD; in which:
DOV[27/8/13] to EDD[2/10/13]=4d+30d+2d
                                                  =36d
                                                  convert to weeks/36d divide by 7
                                                   =5w 1d
                                                   =40w -(5w 1d)
                                                   =34w + 6d
 -basically u'll hv 5w 1d from DOV to the estimated date of delivery(EDD). since usually EDD will be exactly 280 days or 40 weeks, thus, u can simply substract 5w 1d from 40w to get POA! this is so much simpler and highly recommended to use if the DOV is nearer to EDD, but of course, u can use either way, the one you found easier with better understanding.
-well, you might be asking why is the answer 34w+6d instead of 35w+1d. by right, you should get 35w+1d if you simply substract it using usual ordinary addition substraction methods. it's really hard to explain in words, but let me just give you another short example.
 let say if your EDD (23/8/13) & ur DOV (20/8/13). By right, u'll get 3days from DOV to EDD. so, if you wanted to count the POA using the EDD BASED method with usual maths substraction step, you'll end up like this.
POA=40w-(0w +3d)
        =40w+3d
-this is definitely wrong since the total EDD is only 40 weeks. the correct way is actually:
POA=40w-(0w+3d)
        =39w+4d
-by logic, i'm sure you hv no problem figuring out how on earth i ended up putting 39w+4d as the answer,. OR BETTER, I always substract it like this.
using the example from above:

DOV[27/8/13] to EDD[2/10/13]=4d+30d+2d
                                                  =36d
                                                  convert to weeks/36d divide by 7
                                                   =5w 1d
                                                   =39w 7d - (5w 1d) ; instead of using 40 weeks, convert it to 39 w 7d
                                                   =34w + 6d



well then, i shall get my sleep now. remember, practice makes perfect. so just came up with any dates and try to calculate the EDD & POA and compare it with ur friends. trust me, this helps!

hope this helps. anything just comment below k:)