the rage i'm keeping
in the heart that beating
in the world i'm living
was unintended
it was not meant to be that way
as part of me trying
to untie the complicated knot
when the other half of me
was making it more complex
voluntarily; and involuntarily
endlessly
i whisper to several ears
in the hope to get some shoulders to lean on
some extended arms with beautiful wide open heart
to those who will clarify what rights from wrongs
when i've already knew it priorly
the precious thing one needed was actually a reminder
a kind and honest reminder, literally
i stood up straight and claimed my right
and not to forget my whining and pride
as if it was all mine, and forever be bright
but deep inside
it was dark and gloomy
tinged with hasad and jealousy
'istighfar'
they told me constantly
fix your relationship with Him
overflowing words from one mouth to another
everything happen for a reason, the big picture you get to see later, In Sha Allah
I almost knew it all; priorly
yes
i just need a selfless honest reminder
to freshen the thirsty qalb
