and this song reminds me of you.

whisper in the dark

-skillet-

foodtothink.forme. foryou.forus.whom desired jannah. amin. AllahuRabbi.

these, kind of floating in my mind

like a thin air, getting bigger, heavier and right now, suffocate me.

unable to ctach my breath, pricking on that very part in one pinpoint of my heart

agressively, day by day..

i've lived for 21 years untill now (praised to Allah)

what have i contributed to Islam for all this time?

astaghfirullaladzim.

i believed Islam is rising.

and people in in the end of the world would be divided into 3 groups:

1. ppl who denied and against the rising of Islam

2. ppl who just sit and watching, didn't help nor stop

3. ppl whom help in bringing Islam to the top, contributers.

and what would i be?

and you..

what have u been contributed in ISLAM for all this time?...

jiwang second part.

jiwang. as it is.

photo by: hanif
editing : me

when a picture hold thousands of meanings

and the value quality from a single moment captured

that tells millions of stories

about you ..

and me.

and that is called memories. 

:'(

ya Allah

jgn jadikan dunya itu sesuatu yang besar bagiku.

jangan biarkan diriku sibuk dgn perkara-perkara yg membawa aku jauh dari syurgaMu

astaghfirullahaladzim.

:'(

1.57am.

i've blogwalked and found this. and i want to write about it. 

there are certain people, you met thruout ur life, and u loved them, simply not because of something

u just can't rather decribed nor explained the actual reasons why you loved them

not because they did something to you.

and not because they're someone special to you.

not beacause they treat you differently

you just simply love them

maybe because He loves them and He has simply put the love in your heart, towards them

or maybe because you love them due to their love towards Islam

and you mistaken the love as admiration.

or both.

and whatever reasons behind it, it's not a bad thing.

uhibbukifillah, that should be the right words.

uhibbukifillah ukhti wa akhi. 

somebody call it as dream, but i interpret it as du'a. ;)

carilah untukmu seorang imam, bukan semata-mata seorang jejaka..

then i think again.

mesti sweet kalau ckp macam ni instead of "will you marry me?", msti comel je ckp..

"will you be my imam?"

then he replied,

"and then i'll lead you thruout the life, and we'll hold hands together towards Him, 

finding the jannah..."

amin...

a tale of goat and wolf.

i heard a story. about a goat and a wolf.

i don't want to be the goat.

i don't want anyone to become a wolf either.

wind. please blow faster. stronger.

i'm worried. it's getting bigger. and heavier.

pls carry these away as you blow. far. far away from me.

monoloqu.e part 2.

i won't let u notice,

i'm smiling in between my glance.

when i throw away the looks out of you.

cause i won't let u know. what lies inside.

i hope this wind will blow, and brought this things away. far. from me.

this is the test Allah gave to me. i try my best not to fail.

and in the end u'll never gonna make it!

heart.

thinngs aren't going as we planned.

la tahzan.

true. i'm breaking down right now.

oh Allah make me strong.

make me strong.

make me strong.

amin.

ini aku.

humans are prone to make mistakes,

but pls respect me this one thing.

don't pity me;

it make me feel helpless when i'm not.

pls..

Allah itu sebaik-baik penolong & nothing else. :)

wonder.

i always wondered..

"How do we become strong, without being hard, and remain soft, without being weak?"

talking to the moon.

it's a relieved.

He had taken those feeling from me.

i saved the best for the best:)

still i haven't got rid of this jealousy. haha.poor me. 

but true. it's a relieved.

alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah.

disappear & disappear

off u may go.

my heart is for my Lord, my Love & my Creator.

sweet.

malam ni aku jumpa banyak ayat2 sweet.

mcm gula2 kapas. mungkin lebih.

untuk hati sepahit kopi hitam, sepedih hirisan bawang merah.

ya akhi ya ukhti tak mengapakan share? jzkk :)

wahai diri..

tidak mengapa untuk kehilangan cinta duniawi yang sementara,jika pertukarannya adalah 

cinta dari Ilahi yang hakiki..allahurabbi..

mungkin buat masa ni kita x leh maen2 sentuh2..cumanya kite buleh menyentuh hati  masing2 dengan doa bukan?.... 

kejar akhirat! dunia akan kejar kita...

                        Never let your day pass without remembering Allah 

Kentalkanlah hubungan dengan Allah.
Di situ ada jalan keluar untuk setiap masalah.

paling sweet..

ALLAHU RABBI.. :')

nite. assalamualaikum.

when u feel damn suffocated inside

your mind is tired of thinking and ur heart is restless and uncalm

with incomplete unexplainable burn out of fire

and your eyes tired of producing, and working

and u know u seriously u need some (much) ejection of Love from Him

u seriously need rohaniah food for feeding.

alhamdulillah for this endlessly 'love potion' from you, My Lord.

alhamdulillah for all these tears i pour 

alhamdulillah for making me realise what i should and not to,

dragging me dumbfounded and bring me up again.

only to You i should turn, and no one else, and nothing else.

alhamdulillah :')

iwillneversayi'mhurtcauseidon'twantyoutoseeit!

it's ok.

for the unfairness

for the accuse & for the blame.

as long as it is not true.

i've got nothing to lose

dear, we're not here to judge among ourselves

it's His job;

btw..

assalamualaikum

ya Rasulullah. :')

subhanallah.

hebatnya Rasulullah merindui umatnya yang masih belum ada ketika itu.

hebatnya Rasullulah mencintai umatnya yang tidak pernah dilihat

subhanallah.

sweetnye Rasulullah.

hebat cintanya kepada umatnya.

sehingga sebelum menghembus nafasnya yang terakhir juga,

umatnya yang disebut, diiingati.
dirisaukan. didoakan.

ya Rasulullah

hebatnya cintamu. besarnya cintamu. 
ya Rasulullah
kami umatmu, umat akhir zaman
yang tidak pernah melihat wajahmu, saban hari merinduimu
semoga kita dapat bertemu di Masyar kelak

ya Rahman ya Rahim,

jadikan aku hambaMu yang termasuk dalam golongan yang dirindui Rasulullah itu.

jadikan aku hambaMu yang sentiasa memujiMu dan berselawat ke atas Rasulku

ayuh selawat!

semoga mendapat syafaat Rasulullah di Akhirah kelak.

:')

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

اللَهــــم صَــــلّ علَى ســيّدنا مُحمَّــــــد و علَى آل ســـيّدنا مُحمَّــــــدْ

c.a.n.v.a.s

and if there is special somebody exist in life, be sure to keep him / her for life. :')-yumi

as you wave your hand that says 'someday let's meet again," 

your smiling face is eternally burn into my memory

my face which replied 'that's right'

i wonder if i was able to laugh convincingly? convincingly...

though i still cannot hand over the ball with 'i love you' written on it

it rolls in my chest and tickles, deep. down.

even if we can't remain like this

and even if we are washed away by future

it can never change, it can never become tainted

this canvas just for us 

your response of 'i'm sorry..'

i looked at it & continue walking on & searching

even if the words 'i love you' written on the ball will fade..

i didn't have the strength to throw it or sneakiness to get rid of it

within time which passes by

beneath the sky that continue changing

these chain's i'll never forget will never break

and will probably turn into strength

it seems so easy to tear like the clouds

and it's impossible to catch like the rainbow

we can never return, it can never be tainted

that blue canvas of ours..

love, and dreams, and the last train and..

everything that mixed up as we chase it

you says 'it hurts.' when i grip your hand

love, and dreams, and your tearful voice, was my life's everything

i was looking in your eye. but true.

i could never say it..

even if we can not remain like this

and even if we are washed away by the future

it can never changes, it's not a lie

that we are able to meet right now

eventhough i was free as bird

i was lonely as the wind

we can never return, it can't be tainted as well

the painted tears of canvas

this canvas that's just for us

|canvas-ken hirai|

even if we can not remain like this, and even if we are washed away by future

it will never change, it can never be tainted

our moment painted in canvas...

some note.

assalamualaikum

some random thought

of course la kan!

why afraid..

if we have ALLAH?

la tahzan.