five or ten years to go.

I made this not-so-long time ago when I still have time to lie around and wandering still. Apparently, I got all blues and melancholy stuff running through my mind and ended up spending times doing this in the middle of the night, with wind blowing breezily right onto my face. I have no idea how it became blurred when I uploaded in utube, so forgave me for that. Perhaps I should learn converting videos to hd for the time being. But if u by chance wish to watch clearer version, skype me anytime!

I just wanted u guys to know deep down inside, even if we denied it, we’re bonded by something extraordinary called… friends.

I love you guys, seriously. J

song by the fray: viena 

latenightjot.

honestly, right now i'm fighting with myself; in which either to write a post, eat instant noodles curry flavour or lay back and relax reading novel-lost for words by lorelei mathias. in the end, here i am, typing unnecessary stuffs, pretending to do a little a bit of thinking when actually what i was doing was staring at the monitor, waiting for the words to flow from the brain.--".

as everyone had already aware, i am currently doing my clinical years, 3 years to go to grad (in sha Allah and aamin-please pray for us btw), clerking patients like all-of-us-know-how attitude and giving the best smile i've ever had to the patients, doctors, nurses as well as hospital staff. of course, sometimes i am at that position too, things you called as at delirious state, not knowing what to do. the awkwardness of being in the middle of everybody who busily doing something. and with white coat hanging on the body and stethoscope wrapped inside the pocket, claimed yourself as medical students but in fact, don't really know what were actually you hv had to do there.

but of course, bit by bit, getting grasp of the whole situation. starting to have clearer point of views of aims and to-do-things. all we have to do is to put ourselves in the humbleness, so that we'll be fully exposed & ready for any knowledge and lessons to be teach by various teachers-no matter who they are. could be they are the doctors, the professors, the nurses, the patients or even the cleaners. we're not gonna go anywhere if we're not willing to drown ourselves in this sea of humbleness. set aside the ego, throw it away somewhere it could never be found, ever again! of course, diligent, determination, respect and PRACTICES do make a lot of differences. knowledge too-as what miss nani always said.

  the last one is a present.to my current vitamin-21 years old chinese guy with sweet smile.LOL:P

and like a petal that's fallen from a dying flower, i fell for you knowing it'd never work out anyways. -ws-

haha.
i just love the quote very much. ignore the last statement. =P