I heard. It's a little late but I heard - you quit. It's been a month now - well maybe. I thought i would have a change of heart. I looked at you from a distance while trying to find myself. It occured to me - maybe i will look at you differently now. Well, at least that's what i thought.
So does it mean you are nobody now? Or maybe at least i wouldn't be looking at you so high, like i always did- when i was a houseman still. Will everything become different now?
I guessed i was wrong. Im still trying to find you in my everyday, without fail. Yes, when i was busy you weren't anywhere to be found. But even the least trivial things reminds me of you --The sight of your head lifted up to me when i asked you random question on that very day, your voice i heard when i first met you during my 4th posting - i don't even know your name, i haven't seen your face but i knew it was you after all. Little did i know my heart will go this far - idiotically persistent.
In sha Allah, you'll be under his guidance. You'll shine just like how you always did, as far as i could remember. My thoughts and prayers will always be with you.
They say im a coward - i do nothing. I did not try at all. True. I cant. Just someday, maybe someday, may our path crossed and you'll be able to read this, and know it's meant for you.
And that moment, i hoped it wasn't too late
- and too long.
