soon

just like bubbles in the ocean
sometimes too happy of yourself
and sometimes you sit quitely in the corner, without words
beautifully,
beautifully

you're difficult to understand
let them say everything and anything about it
i understand fullly how it should be
just the way it is
beautiful

don't be insecure
cause i couldn't stop time
it'll end sooner
and for the remaining not much time left
let's keep good memories here.

it's ending too soon here in unpad.
and it feels just like yesterday.
still.

I can't remember when it was good
Moments of happiness in bloom
Maybe I just misunderstood
All of the love we left behind
Watching our flash backs intertwine
Memories I will never find
-muse (falling away with you)-

a little something.

i find the need to tell something.

sometimes i cry myself to sleep

i wet my pillow that it left marks the time i woke up

i don't quite use to cry to people, or share with others my problems

yes i am not an open person

i kept too many secrets about myself. that i think it isn't necessary to tell or share with others.

so the next time you see me

i might be smiling and laughing, but last night i might wet my pillow

the time i was in mrsm, i've to share my room with another 3 roomates

so when i faced any problems and suddenly felt like crying

i don't cry in the room. i'm afraid they might see it

and then ask me why, and the fact that i'll cry even louder when being asked such a question

i hate explaining to others why i'm crying because i hate to be looked 'pitiful'.or helpless. or hopeless.

(for i might cry on the simplest thing, i'm afraid to be called as weak)

so what i did was everytime i felt like crying, or huge burden on my shoulder

i went to toilet or shower room and cry so that no one can hear me due to that loud water splashing sound

i can still remeber when they always ask me days back then.
don't you cry? don't you miss your family? are you not homesick?

i always smile without answering. they didn't even know the truth

you can see me being rough

because i hate looking weak

but i am not strong either

i am touched on the simplest thing'

so one day if by any chance you see me cry

don't bother ask me why

because i will heal myself. i'm used to it. He will heal me and take care of the rest

because i don't need symphaty

do me a favour?

don't pity me.