opah.

opah. she's staying with us for several days. trying my best to be a good granddaughter, i spend some times chatting with her, get her what she need, asking her if she ever need something or if she's hungry,and then fetch her some food. opah is currently 76 years old, she couldn't see well now. but still, she's able to see if things are in appropriate distance. 

i sat beside opah. she was holding tasbih, smiled broadly looking at me. i was concerned since she spent most of the times in her room. i even asked her to come out, and watch television. of course, she refused telling me  how she can't see clearly now. plus, watching tv is a waste of time. i can't help but being bothered by the fact she might be uncomfortable, or bored since she only stays in her room.

politely, i asked. "opah nak ape2 tak? magazine ke? ape ke?"

"eh toksah2.. opah taknak ape2."

"opah duduk dlm bilik je dr tadi. tak bosan ke? opah buat ape je dari tadi tak kluar2 dr bilik ni?"

"xde bosannye wawa..opah zikir semua mane bosannye. kamu pikior la wawa, kelmarin, lepas solat, biasanye kite pegang quran.lepas maghrib, isyaq, semua.  sekarang mate opah dah xnampak, sedih sgt. awak bukanle tahfiz. tapi tu la, opah hari-hari dok ulang ulang surah yang same. yang mane yang opah ingat. rindu sgt nak bace quran.."

-perak accent : kelmarin=dulu-dulu. awak=saya -

i was touched, and yes, i did really feel sad. i asked opah if by chance i could get her mp3 which i will insert all surah into it so that she can replay everytime she want to hear or recite al-quran.

but of course, she gently refused. opah has a habit that she don't want to burden anybody including her own children. she always tell me that she hoped she wouldn't end up having alzheimer disease, nyanyuk, everything because she knows how much trouble that can be to her daughter and son. that's why she always refused to stay in my aunts and uncles house, and prefer staying in hers although i knew deep in heart, she might felt lonely. who will not? finishing the remaining last time of life alone by herself. late atok has gone so many years ago, back when i was still in primary school. since then, she's been by herself in kampung. although mak pah(aunt) was nearby, still not being in the same house wouldn't make a big different. 

when i looked at opah, i can't help but remeber what Allah has told us in surah Al-Asr. 

"by time, verily man is in loss."