absolute beautiful.

dear Allah

i know the road is long. but make me strong.

i knew i don't get what i want, U gave me what i needed instead:)

U gave me them, i knew this is the strength i need to gain

after all, they are bunch of people U send to me so that learn some lessons

what doesn't kill one only make one stronger right?

ya Allah i pray for calmness and sabr

and happiness and heart full with appreciation
do keep me out from this unhealthy jealousy

and pls grant me healthiness too :)

sometimes it gets so hard for me

probably i see it in wrong point of view

but i never doubt this is the best 

ya Allah my dear Allah

pls content me sabr and purity

pls keep me from my insidious poisonous thinking

i get afraid of myself sometimes.maybe. most of the times.

i may look good and nice outside

but deep inside, i don't even know what kind of monster i am

:')

absolute beautiful. to infinity,

my as if.

as if.
as if i was trying too hard
as if the words are for me
as if i left it all
as if it wasn't a big deal
pretend to careless
it was a big fat lie
i'll continue this lie. until i close properly
burry the remainders;
and blow the ashes
remain in silent.

still giving up or give in is not an option.
never!

ya Allah yang membolak balikkan hati, tetapkan hati ini kukuh teguh di jalanMu.
agar fitrah ini tak menjadi fitnah.
agar hati ini tenang tanpa gundah.

i just want to say alhamdulillah
alhamdulillah.
:')

keep walking.

ya Allah yang membolak balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku di atas jalanMu.

KEEP WALKING.

Every day I get closer to our Meeting.
I feel like I’ve been walking this path for a thousand years
towards You…
and yet I’m still not there.
So close, and yet so far still

But I keep walking,
despite the tears,
despite the wind,
despite the skinned knees and broken bones,
despite the bruises and scars that make this heart what it is today,
I keep walking…
toward You.
There’s only one direction,
one direction:
towards You.
From You, to You.
I have nothing else.
Nothing.
That is my poverty.

I keep walking
because behind every sun’s setting is a rising,
Behind every storm is a Refuge,
Behind every fall is a rise,
Behind every tear is a cleansing of the eyes.
And in every spot you’ve ever been stabbed, is a healing,
and the creation of skin stronger than it was.

I keep walking
because wallahi I have nothing but Your mercy.
I have nothing but Your promise
Your words

-yasmin mogahed-

random 3#.

it had been song long since the last time i played more than words. i already forgot how to pluck that song. thought i want to play it a bit. but yeah, 2mr is going to be the first paper. crp. so i postponed my wills later though my heart tells me not to. pft.

like usual, i am waiting for ishak. instead, don't know how, in the middle of nowhere, she came into my mind. i called her nash. i met her at kmpk. she is always a good friend of mine, she plays futsal (striker, indeed), a bit tomboyish-like, cute and i adore her (in a good way --"). she has this positive-thinking mind, she dreams high. i still can remeber how she told me about her ambitions one night, when i accidentally went to her room. she showed me all the sticky notes with her aims & goals she pasted on the wall. yes. she is one of a kind. she loves history subject too.

lol. suddenly, i'm missing her. we're not that besties, but for some reasons, i do like her a lot. during my birthday, when i was about to go to the class, i was running down the staircase, she saw me and along with her roomies, she sang happy birthday.*touched*. lol.yes. that's me!.  i always remember smallest things in life, that left something big in my heart. :)

thinking of her, i suddenly remembered this song. she used to like it. probably still. 

 

may Allah bless u, nash a.k.a cua.

pst 1 : kate org kalau rindu, panjat doa2 byk. oh rindu family ngn anak buah :').
pst 2 : beautiful rain tgh hari tadi. subhanallah.
pst 3 :my beautiful insignificant. eh. goodbye.
pst 4 : stay positive. even kids know how to do that.
pst 5 : smoga ALLAH permudahkan urusan kawan-kwan ku skalian. heee:). may the best be upon us.

:')

because i have to.
i just have to.
Allah
Allah
Allah.

31 december notes.

assalamaualaikum :). nak tulis dalam bahasa. heee

fireworks. subhanallah. masyaAllah. beautiful. i was in the car just now, just got back from bandara to mulana. and it is 31st december. they're all celebrating 1st january new year, with fireworks and meriam. for me, i don't wish selamat tahun baru, or happy new year, or making new 'azam tahun baru' sort, i always believe everyday is His gift and another chance to improve one's so everyday is a new year, start with a new hope and new beginning :). but still, i do respect ppl whom making things like that, because peoples are different, if that'll help them to become better, why not?

alhamdulillah. to most of newlyweds i met, may Allah blessing's be all along the way. may the new 'mosque' built will be fill with sakinah, mawaddah, and rahmah. in sya Allah. :'). marriage did complete half of each deen's for a couple. selamat menjalani alam rumah tangga la ye my sissy, my senior and others too:).

2012 did teach me a lot. tomorrow i'll be 22, informally. there are too many sweet sour salty bitter memories all along the way, but i believe in each of that pieces of moments, there're something valuable to be learn. masa lalu bukan untuk dikesal dan diratapi lama-lama, tetapi untuk ditoleh sebentar dan diambil pengajaran. because we are human. and we make mistakes.i value and appreciate all my mistakes because it will create a better me. kan? ;).

my journey might still be too far. but at the very least, i'm making my baby steps. sbb Allah tgok usaha compare to result kan? hee. 

some picture-says-it-all notes ;)

"air mata ini menyedarkanku, yang kau takkan pernah jadi milikku.." -noah band  (HUMU)

tumpang pakai inai di wedding sissy.

i bought this yesterday night at mph. ole2 sebelum balik bandung:)

tu je. may Allah bless.