my as if.

as if.
as if i was trying too hard
as if the words are for me
as if i left it all
as if it wasn't a big deal
pretend to careless
it was a big fat lie
i'll continue this lie. until i close properly
burry the remainders;
and blow the ashes
remain in silent.

still giving up or give in is not an option.
never!

ya Allah yang membolak balikkan hati, tetapkan hati ini kukuh teguh di jalanMu.
agar fitrah ini tak menjadi fitnah.
agar hati ini tenang tanpa gundah.