season.

16 august 2014.
my sahabah wedding, she was part of ABLA.
truthfully, deep in my heart i was happy intertwined with overflowing sadness as i knew it will never be the same between all of us again.
she will now have more responsibility and other more important things to be taken care of
of course, that was a childish side of mine
one day, we all will step on this staircase too, just like her
iA, may Allah granted us zauj yg soleh, aamin 
the childish heart of mine was wounded again filled with excitement and astonishment as i knew another abla-ee will build up her baitul this year on november
my eyes were teary, literally
we are 6 all of us, and now 2 had settled down in marriage and another 1 on this upcoming november

i was being greedy, i knew
i was sulking a bit, in my own way
when there was just 2 of us
in front of mosque, 
she asked me something. she was all demure and sweet looking. let me introduce her as XYZ. 

"nadwa, ape tujuan kita berkhwin?"

i gave that empty look. answering her question with another question.

"ape tujuan kita berkahwin XYZ?"

she paused a moment, there was a smile curved on her face. her face lits with hope and modesty.

"takpelah kalau tujuan kita berkahwin supaya ada yg melindungi, or nak anak dan sebagainya. tapi sebenarnya on top of that, tujuan kita berkahwin hanyalah kerana yang kat atas tu.. kerana Allah" she pointed up her finger, upwards.

i looked at her, interested. her lips was still tinged with a smile.

"kalau kita rasa dengan berkahwin, dapat mendekatkan kita lagi dgn maha Esa, maka berkahwinlah. klu tujuan kita hanya kerana Allah, any outcome of the marriage pn kita dapat terima. sbb yang kita nak Allah. yang kita harapkan Allah. bukan lelaki tu. sbb tujuan kite satu, nak cari redha Allah,"

she was a friend of mine since years ago. we always have this kind of small misagreement, but behind that, i knew we all loved and appreciated each other truthfully. i am lucky Allah had sent me all this these wonderful friends that had help me to become who i am today, who love and accepted me unconditionally, who pulled me closer when i'm far.

alhamdulillah for this nikmah. 

i love u guys, ABLA so much. :')